When you thought you were alone

"Once, when you thought no one was looking, I saw you open your heart so wide the earth fell in. Once, when you thought no one was listening, I heard you sigh so deep the oceans roared with support. Once, when you thought you were all alone, I felt every atom in this universe rush forward to embrace you. Again. Thank you for existing so intensely"

{my spirtual guide}
{photo}

A brilliant point

Yoga's new wave

{photo via Alicia J. Rose Flickr}

a hot mess

"Last week, when I asked the divine what the hell to do about all this mess, I experienced an inner vision. It was that of a massive red velvet curtain - like one that hangs in those old grand theaters – dropping smoothly and quickly down to the floor.

Thud.

Cutting me off from my audience, from the house lights, from the world.

Alone, I slowly turned around in the darkness of my new environment and was immediately embraced by the energy of Her. My Red Lady. And the tears flowed and the heart hiccupped and the mind quieted and I got it.

For now, I need to be with the Divine She of Me. This is a foundational boundary I need to draw and uphold. So, a necessary cocooning, a molting, a shedding of skins (how many insect/animal metaphors can I bring in?), can happen.

And although all this probably sounds awfully dramatic and pretentious, it is where I need to be at this time. No apologies. No exceptions. No compromises.

Until She raises the red velvet curtain again.

Then I will come back to this blog shaking my bloody wings, my dusty mini skirt, and my dirty sense of humor. At you. At myself. At life."

Thank you Sera Beak {photo}

Peace Faith & Love

Peace Faith Love

The Bride Was Beautiful

"Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, held off cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life.
Katie had chased away cancer once, only to have it return - to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart.
Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.
Five days later, Katie died.

New Beginnings

I personally am very tired of the drabness winter brings. Its amazing how just a little peek of color can excite all the senses and put this feeling of happiness in my soul. ahhhhh what a relief! Spring brings a feeling of a new beginnings. Let's start this month with a smile. xoxo

{photos from Dan, magic fly paula, moaan, Yvette Inufio}

one more passing show

"This is a strategy that I have recently adopted into my own life. It's a subtle reminder that everything- the good and the bad, pleasure and pain, approval and disapproval, achievements and mistakes, fame and shame- all come and go. Everything has a beginning and an ending and that's the way its supposed to be.
Every experience you have ever had is over. Every thought you have ever had, started and finished. Every emotion and mood you've experienced has been replaced by another.You've been happy, sad, jealous, depressed, angry, in love, shamed, proud, and every other conceivable human feeling. Where did they all go? The answered is no one really knows. All we know is that, eventually, everything disappears into nothingness. Welcoming this truth into your life is the beginning of a liberating adventure.
Our disappointment comes about in essentially two ways. When we are experiencing pleasure we want it to last forever. It never does. Or when we are experiencing pain, we want it to go away-- now. It usually doesn't. Unhappiness is the result of struggling against the natural flow of experience.
It's enormously helpful to experiment with the awareness that life is just one thing after another. One present moment followed by another present moment. When something is happening that we enjoy, know that while it's wonderful to experience the happiness it brings, it will eventually be replaced by something else, a different type of moment. If that's OK with you, you'll feel peace even when the moment changes. And if you are experiencing some type of pain or displeasure, know that this too shall pass. Keeping this awareness close to your heart is a wonderful way to maintain your perspective, even in the face of adversity. It's not always easy but it is helpful." Richard Carlson

{amazing photo by Rosie Hardy}

Dear Grandma,

Forever this lullaby will remind me of you, it brings me back to childhood and the love I felt in your presence as you rubbed my head and sang "too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral. I love you

Falling..

Have you ever fallen just so hard that you could not bare the thought to rise again? If you are human odds are you have. You see we need to fall to get back up again, we need our lows to feel our highs, we need to feel cold to feel the warmth. As long as we can remember what the warmth of the sun feels like on our skin, to quench our thirst, our "drive" what we are made of, will persevere and keep us moving forward.

(photo from Rosie Hardy)

Perfect

I found this and I have to share. Such great words of wisdom at this time in my life. I hope it makes the warm fuzzy feeling in your belly as it did in mine.

"Here is what I have learned in my 30 years (which isn't much much but it might be enough):

#1) Everything is perfect. Including you. You are perfect. Right now. Exactly how you are, you're perfect. Close your eyes. Breathe in. That air? Perfect. Your greasy hair and dry feet and tummy roll and hairy legs are perfect. I'm not kidding. It's all perfect.

#2) You know that place you were trying to get to this whole time? The destination that made you feel guilty and stressed and hurried and not good enough? The place that would suddenly appear when you had enough or were enough? You're there! You made it! It was here, this whole time! So you can stop trying so hard, stop rushing and yelling and getting upset and putting others down. Stop judging, stop regretting, stop worrying, stop waiting, stop looking back, stop wishing, stop planning, you're here now. And it's perfect. Did I mention that already? It's true. You're here and everything is perfect, including you.

And I'm 30 now, I feel old and young and loved and lonely and selfish and sweaty and grateful and tired and creative and content and I'm here. And I'm perfect too."--Cori Kindred

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