Wednesday, September 30, 2009

'Bright Star' Trailer HD

"We must cut the threads."

Friday, September 25, 2009

a hot mess

"Last week, when I asked the divine what the hell to do about all this mess, I experienced an inner vision. It was that of a massive red velvet curtain - like one that hangs in those old grand theaters – dropping smoothly and quickly down to the floor.


Cutting me off from my audience, from the house lights, from the world.

Alone, I slowly turned around in the darkness of my new environment and was immediately embraced by the energy of Her. My Red Lady. And the tears flowed and the heart hiccupped and the mind quieted and I got it.

For now, I need to be with the Divine She of Me. This is a foundational boundary I need to draw and uphold. So, a necessary cocooning, a molting, a shedding of skins (how many insect/animal metaphors can I bring in?), can happen.

And although all this probably sounds awfully dramatic and pretentious, it is where I need to be at this time. No apologies. No exceptions. No compromises.

Until She raises the red velvet curtain again.

Then I will come back to this blog shaking my bloody wings, my dusty mini skirt, and my dirty sense of humor. At you. At myself. At life."

Thank you Sera Beak {photo}

Thunder Perfect Mind - Prada

The Thunder, Perfect Mind

I was sent forth from the power,
and I have come to those who reflect upon me,
and I have been found among those who seek after me.
Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,
and you hearers, hear me.
You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.
And do not banish me from your sight.
And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!
Do not be ignorant of me.

For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am the mother and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one
and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,
and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,
and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in due time and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible
and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold
and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.

Why, you who hate me, do you love me,
and you hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,
and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and those who have not known me, let them know me.

For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and peace.
Give heed to me.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.

Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,
and you will find me in those that are to come.
And do not look upon me on the dung-heap
nor go out and leave me cast out,
and you will find me in the kingdoms.
And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who
are disgraced and in the least places,
nor laugh at me.
And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.
But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.

Be on your guard!
Do not hate my obedience
and do not love my self control.
In my weakness, do not forsake me,
and do not be afraid of my power.
For why do you despise my fear
and curse my pride?
But I am she who exists in all fears
and strength in trembling.
I am she who is weak,
and I am well in a pleasant place.
I am senseless and I am wise.

Why have you hated me in your counsels?
For I shall be silent among those who are silent,
and I shall appear and speak,
Why then have you hated me, you Greeks?
because I am a barbarian among the barbarians?
For I am the wisdom of the Greeks
and the knowledge of the barbarians.
I am the judgement of the Greeks and of the barbarians.
I am the one whose image is great in Egypt
and the one who has no image among the barbarians.
I am the one who has been hated everywhere
and who has been loved everywhere.
I am the one whom they call life,
and you have called death.
I am the one whom they call the law,
and you have called lawlessness.
I am the one whom you have pursued,
and I am the one whom you have seized.
I am the one whom you have scattered,
and you have gathered me together.
I am the one before whom you have been ashamed,
and you have been shameless to me.
I am she who does not keep festival,
and I am she whose festivals are many.
I, I am godless,
and I am the one whose God is great.
I am the one whom you have reflected upon,
and you have scorned me.
I am unlearned,
and they learn from me.
I am the one that you have despised,
and you reflect upon me.
I am the one whom you have hidden from,
and you appear to me.
But whenever you hide yourselves,
I myself will appear.
For whenever you appear,
I myself will hide from you.

Take me to yourselves from understanding and grief.
And take me to yourselves in places that are ugly and in ruin,
and rob from those which are good even though in ugliness.
Out of shame, take me to yourselves shamelessly;
and out of shamelessness and shame, upbraid my members in yourselves.
And come forward to me, you who know me and you who know my members,
and establish the great ones among the small first creatures.
Come forward to childhood,
and do not despise it because it is small and it is little.
And do not turn away from greatnesses in some part of the smallnesses,
for the smallnesses are known from the greatnesses.

Why do you curse me and honor me?
You have wounded and you have had mercy.
Do not separate me from the first ones you have known.
And do not cast anyone out nor turn anyone away
I know the first ones and those after them know me.

I am the knowledge of my inquiry,
and the finding of those who seek after me,
and the command of those who ask of me,
and the power of the powers in my knowledge
of the angels, who have been sent at my word,
and of gods in their seasons by my counsel,
and of spirits of every man who exists with me, and of women who dwell
within me.

I am the one who is honored, and who is praised,
and who is despised scornfully.
I am peace,
and war has come because of me.
I am an alien and a citizen.
I am the substance and the one who has no substance.

Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me,
and those who are in my substance are the ones who know me.
Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me,
and those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me.
On the day when I am close to you,
you are far away from me
and on the day when I am far away from you
I am close to you.

I am ... within.
I am ... of the natures.
I am the creation of the spirits.
I am control and the uncontrollable.
I am the union and the dissolution.
I am the abiding and I am the dissolving.
I am the one below,
and they come up to me.
I am the judgement and the acquittal.
I, I am sinless,
and the root of sin derives from me.
I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone
and the speech which cannot be grasped.
I am a mute who does not speak,
and great is my multitude of words.

Hear me in gentleness, and learn of me in roughness.
I am she who cries out,
and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth.
I prepare the bread and my mind within.
I am the knowledge of my name.
I am the one who cries out,
and I listen.
I am the one who is called Truth
and iniquity.

You honor me and you whisper against me.
Judge them before they give judgement against you,
because the judge and partiality exist in you.
If you are condemned by this one, who will acquit you?
Or, if you are acquitted by him, who will be able to detain you?
For what is inside of you is what is outside of you,
and the one who fashions you on the outside
is the one who shaped the inside of you.
And what you see outside of you,
you see inside of you;
it is visible and it is your garment.
Hear me, you hearers
and learn of my words, you who know me.
I am the hearing that is attainable to everything;
I am the speech that cannot be grasped.
I am the name of the sound
and the sound of the name.
I am the sign of the letter
and the designation of the division.
And I will speak his name.

Look then at his words
and all the writings which have been completed.
Give heed then, you hearers
and you also, the angels and those who have been sent,
and you spirits who have risen from the dead.
For I am the one who alone exists,
and I have no one who will judge me.

For many are the pleasant forms which exist in
numerous sins,
and incontinencies,
and disgraceful passions,
and fleeting pleasures,
which men embrace until they become sober
and go up to their resting place.
And they will find me there,
and they will live,
and they will not die again.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Today - July 23rd

Today I am going to flush negative thoughts from my mind.

Today I am going to celebrate you.

To feel.
Two years ago we embarked on a journey. With you by my side and mine yours, we discovered ourselves through each other, we dawned different life lenses providing new perspectives, we endeavored to support each other unconditionally, we defined true love in our own way, and we unearthed together what it means to feel.
To feel.
Without you, I would have never fully understood the purity, peace, and power of this concept.
To feel.
I am a better person because of you.
I feel.

Today I am blessed to have had you in my life.
Today I am going to celebrate you.

Happy Anniversary

Today I feel part of my soul slipped through my bones.
Today is the hardest day to remember "us".

To feel
I feel that half my heart will loose a beat forever,
I feel that until we are together again I will never have that beat back.
To feel
The gratefulness the love the serenity the passion the trust...
The HOPE, that we discovered together.
I feel.

Today I hope my decisions are the right ones.
Today I am blessed to have had you in my life.
Today I will celebrate you and the love you shared with me.

Happy Anniversary
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Thursday, June 4, 2009

That Is When I Know I Am Loved The Most

i miss waking up to you

waking up next to you
hair tangled, stinky breath...
i nuzzle in your nook...
that is when i know i am loved the most.

{le love}
many thanks to photographer sarah rhoads for this beautiful submission ♥

"Is it the bag who knew too much? Marion Cottilard has reunited with her “La Vie en Rose” director Olivier Dahan for a Hitchcock-inspired short film, in which the star of the show is that lambskin ingĂ©nue known as the Lady Dior handbag.

Lady Noire,” the first of four installments to be released over the next two years to coincide with Dior collections, features a villainous millionaire, our heroine teetering on a cross-beam of the Eiffel tower, and well-dressed thugs in Dior Homme. Who will save her?

Don’t expect to find out this season, since the story is somewhat opaque, although clues are provided — where else? — on the handbag’s Twitter page. Lovers of fashionable suspense will thrill to the scene where Cotillard slowly unpacks from her bag a glittering array of accessories, each with signature cannage cross-hatching, including an especially fancy Dior Mobile phone that resembles an Art Deco cigarette case. (Naomi Campbell would kill for — and with — one.)

Cotillard will play a different character in a different city with each episode, the second of which is titled “Lady Rouge.” Details of the story are as secret as next year’s silhouette, but we’re hoping for plot-twists worthy of any big screen franchise. Maybe John Galliano will take off his bandanna and reveal that he’s Marion’s father?" {NYC Times}

Friday, May 29, 2009

Peace Faith & Love

Peace Faith Love

Bandeau Headband

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Au Naturel

Magazine editors seem to have noticed (at last!) that women need to see models and actresses in a truer form, without the work of makeup artists and retouchers to mask their pores, cellulite, and wrinkles. The upcoming issue of French Elle, which hits newsstands this weekend, features Eva Herzigova, Monica Bellucci, Sophie Marceau, Charlotte Rampling, and four other females sans fards, which is a French idiom that literally means “without rouge/makeup,” but implies “openness.”

We’re totally psyched to see beautiful women in a more natural, albeit still extremely flattering light. Photographer Peter Lindbergh snapped the women, so they’re not anything like the horribly unattractive candids our friends take of us around 1 a.m. after we’ve ingested a few cocktails, but they’re the closest a fashion magazine is going to get.

Like Italian Vogue‘s black issue, this month’s French Elle is a step in the right direction for magazines, but once a year isn’t enough. Shouldn’t we be able to see celebs looking more like themselves every month? I don’t mean in unattractive photos like the ones tabloids shoot, showing stars’ boogers and dry skin. Natural can be beautiful and at home in a glossy magazine. In this month’s Glamour, there’s a swimsuit story that features a curvy model, and everyone at The Frisky gushed over the model’s hot bod. But the headline reads: “Not a dental-floss-thing kind of girl? Then you’ll love the new old-school Hollywood trend, meant to flatter goddesses of every shape and size.” Why can’t we just integrate natural, more realistic beauty on a regular basis, without calling out the content: This is for all of our non-skinny readers!!!
{via the frisky}

The World Is His Oyster

Philippe Starck never entertains on the half shell.

Did You Say It

did you say it

i love you.

i don't ever want to live without you.

you changed my life...did you say it?

make a plan, set a goal, work toward it.

but every now and then look around

drink it in cause, this is it

it might be all gone tomorrow.

{grey's anatomy}
{photodarling sky}

Monday, May 18, 2009

I heart Jared Leto

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

ABSINTHE? So devil may care, so deliciously disreputable, so ... louche. But it’s poisonous, no? It eats your brain and drives you crazy!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Slim, Rich and Famous

Slim Aarons is one of the most prolific and revered society photographers of the 20Th century.
So very sexy! Just a little inspiration.

Getty Images Gallery

Freeze That Thought

UNDERESTIMATED plan well, freeze well, then eat well!

Perhaps More Than Just Pretty Faces

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


IVANAhelsinki is a Finnish art brand. (one of my favorite personal styles) It represents a completely new Northern style called "fennofolk". It brings delicately together Slavic melancholy and pure Scandinavian moods with white Arctic summer nights and endless winter sadness.
Paola Ivana Suhonen is the designer behind the fashion pieces, starting from her dark naive landscapes, northern legend sagas, doing prints, graphics,short movies and well, everything that is involved with the visuals. 

The Bride Was Beautiful

"Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, held off cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life.
Katie had chased away cancer once, only to have it return - to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart.
Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.
Five days later, Katie died.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


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Monday, April 6, 2009

Reflections of a Skyline

i'll tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me..

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

New Beginnings

I personally am very tired of the drabness winter brings. Its amazing how just a little peek of color can excite all the senses and put this feeling of happiness in my soul. ahhhhh what a relief! Spring brings a feeling of a new beginnings. Let's start this month with a smile. xoxo

{photos from Dan, magic fly paula, moaan, Yvette Inufio}

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


come on now, don't you want to see
this thing that's happening to me
like moses has power over sea
so you've got power over me

come on now don't you want to know
you're a refuge, somewhere i can go
you're air that, air that i can breathe
you're my golden opportunity

and oh, oh yes i would
if i only could
and you know i would
and baby i, oh baby i
i wish

come on now, don't you want to see
this thing that's happening to me
i'll be waiting oh no matter what you say
cause i've been waiting for days and days and days

if the sky's gonna fall down let it fall on me
if you're gonna break down you can break on me
if the sky's gonna fall down let it fall on me
Oh Lord
Let it fall on me


Monday, March 30, 2009


Originally uploaded by Yvette Inufio


i am a hopeless romantic, that still believes in the simplicity of love

{thanks le love}

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Where the Wild Things Are

Children, Don't grow up!

Do You?


Wednesday, March 25, 2009

one more passing show

"This is a strategy that I have recently adopted into my own life. It's a subtle reminder that everything- the good and the bad, pleasure and pain, approval and disapproval, achievements and mistakes, fame and shame- all come and go. Everything has a beginning and an ending and that's the way its supposed to be.
Every experience you have ever had is over. Every thought you have ever had, started and finished. Every emotion and mood you've experienced has been replaced by another.You've been happy, sad, jealous, depressed, angry, in love, shamed, proud, and every other conceivable human feeling. Where did they all go? The answered is no one really knows. All we know is that, eventually, everything disappears into nothingness. Welcoming this truth into your life is the beginning of a liberating adventure.
Our disappointment comes about in essentially two ways. When we are experiencing pleasure we want it to last forever. It never does. Or when we are experiencing pain, we want it to go away-- now. It usually doesn't. Unhappiness is the result of struggling against the natural flow of experience.
It's enormously helpful to experiment with the awareness that life is just one thing after another. One present moment followed by another present moment. When something is happening that we enjoy, know that while it's wonderful to experience the happiness it brings, it will eventually be replaced by something else, a different type of moment. If that's OK with you, you'll feel peace even when the moment changes. And if you are experiencing some type of pain or displeasure, know that this too shall pass. Keeping this awareness close to your heart is a wonderful way to maintain your perspective, even in the face of adversity. It's not always easy but it is helpful." Richard Carlson

{amazing photo by Rosie Hardy}

Friday, March 20, 2009

Sunday Dreaming

I promise you that we will spend every Sunday like this. My love for you grows stronger with everyday that passes. xx

{photo via le love}

A Pale Haze

Amazing photography! Camilla Akrans


Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Oren Lavie

Oren Lavie - Her morning elegance from Bruno Garcia on Vimeo.

FC United

Alice is that you stuck in a house? I love it!


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Dear Grandma,

Forever this lullaby will remind me of you, it brings me back to childhood and the love I felt in your presence as you rubbed my head and sang "too-ra-loo-ra-loo-ral. I love you

Monday, March 16, 2009


{photo from here}